Ive just found out my dad killed himself when i was 1, and it makes me angry?

for somebody to face the unknown and leave everything they know behind forever it takes guts, they also have to hate themselves so much and be ina terrible mentally ill state of mind , they are ill and leave this life not in their right state of mind, if you see a tree about to fall on you then you would run out of the way right? if that is not your Instinct then the is something wrong with your mental health, don't be angry at your dad